Finally!! The moment we've all been waiting for!! It's officially begun: www.ferball.com!! :) I finally met with Joey (online, of course) and he helped me figure out why I wasn't able to FTP. And now that I can, everything is PERFECT!! Of course, this is far from the finished product (if there even is one), but this is a LOT closer to what I wanted it to look like. :) I'm still going to make some modifications and improvements, especially on the main (front) page, like having a text pop up when you mouseover the letters (I don't think it's as obvious to people as it should be that the letters are actually links... the whole thing is an image map, people!!). And some of the links are a little choppy and don't make as much sense as it should, so I have to work on those. But patience, little ones, patience. :) Now that I can FTP, I'll be able to make those small changes here and there whenever I have some time. :)

So yeah, I haven't technically been MIA all this time... I just haven't been able to FTP, hence I couldn't update. Last week was a blur... and Emilio flew down to see me Thursday-Sunday, so it was a fun weekend. :) We went to Magic Mountain, saw two movies, and spent lots of time together, playing Magic and stuff. And I still managed to see Josh in his Charlie Brown character (he was sensational!) and have an on-campus interview with Skygo while he was here, too, so it was eventful, productive (to a certain extent), and emotionally satisfying all at once. :)

Not much else has been going on. I feel like we should start thinking about building an ark soon... it's raining like the dickens down here. And yesterday, we seniors had our first pass for enrolling in our LAST QUARTER at UCLA!! (Well, most of us... some of us like Bobby have another quarter after this.) But yeah, that's about it. :)

Please let me know what you guys think about my new front page so far. Remember, I'm making improvements daily, but any comments would be greatly appreciated! Just email me and give me your 2 cents! Thanks!! :)

What?? The 3 day weekend is over already?? :( How sad!! I mean, I'm not saying it wasn't a long weekend because it definitely was... it pretty much started on Thursday night when I took my roommate to the airport. But I guess weekends just always feel too short in general; the longer it is, the shorter it feels, or something like that.

Last night was so fun! After a day of struggling with my 180 reading/homework, I got to go out with my closest friends here (minus Chrissy since she's still in NJ)! Meghan was in town, totally spur of the moment, so we went into Westwood so she could re-live her college time. :) So I got to hang out with her, Bobby, Amber, Bryan, Andrew, and Meghan's friend Terence who came along. It was so nice to hang out again, and I had a great time. :)

Today, we all met for lunch at Baja Fresh, then Meghan and Terence left for home (Castro Valley). I did some more struggling with work for 180 and cleaned my fishies' tank. That's how I found out that my black fish is slowly turning orange!! Weird. Anyway, I was kinda scared for a while because I forgot to let the water sit and get to room temperature, so I threw them into what must have felt like ice cold water to them. The orange one, Vivian, didn't mind, but Amy was just kind of bobbing and hardly moving. Vet Jennifer to the rescue, I scooped him out (yes, HIM) and put him in a temporary quarantine area (AKA tupperware) to let him recuperate. Now they both seem to be fine, although I think the little filter thing is creating a bigger current than before because they seem to be having a hard time swimming to the top on that side, AND the black one seems to be pushed into the pebbles on the floor because of it. Silly fish.

And it's raining like crazy! All day! At least I was kind of productive this weekend. I got Chrissy's birthday gift, grocery shopped, did some laundry, worked on my project with Gavin, kind of got through some of my 180 reading (although the homework is still impossible!!), edited my screenplay for my screenwriting class, cleaned my fish tank, and still got to hang out with friends and even relax with Jenny. AND I downloaded a bunch of stuff off Napster, finally finding this one song that I totally love but didn't know what it was called. (Sandstorm by Darude, btw.) :) I'm happy.

It's Chrissy's birthday, and I can't even tell her happy birthday!! She's in New York right now with her boyfriend, awww!! And while she's out there traipsing around the Big Apple, I'm sitting here, tired after a day of programming with Gavin for 6 hours straight. *sigh* Actually, I'm really understanding this stuff, so that's pretty cool, thanks Gavin! And I want to congratulate Mike for getting yet ANOTHER offer, this time from Agilent. Man, he's tearing it UP on the job-hunt. :)

I also was able to enjoy a relaxing evening watching FaceOff and sipping some Smirnoff Ice with my roommate Jenny while she sipped some of her port wine. Not even buzzed, we just wanted to unwind... we were both pretty productive today, and we just couldn't handle any more school-related stuff. My shoulders and neck are killing me, I think from the sitting-at-my-computer thing. I'm going to try moving the monitor to tilt more upwards and maybe that will help.

Less than 4 months till graduation now! And 4 days till Emilio gets here. It's kind of weird... the closer it gets till he gets here, the less into it I get... I don't know why. I'm sure I'll be excited when the day is here, though.

I got preselected for an interview with a company called Skygo in Redwood City. I don't know if I'm really qualified, but Gavin said if they saw my resume and still preselected me, I might as well go for it. The worst that will happen is they'll see that I'm not smart enough and that's that. It's just an on-campus interview, and it's actually on Friday (while Emilio's here), but it's in the morning (9:30), so I'll just send him to the arcade on campus while I'm there (it's 45 minutes) and then we can spend the rest of the day doing whatever we've got planned for that day.

Anyway, I'm pretty tired, so I'm going to get some sleep. Yay for clean sheets!! :)

The infamous day is here, the day of love and gagging. I feel obligated to write and tell everyone that I love that I love them. I guess most of them should know without me explicitly saying it. But here goes, anyway:

Family: Daddy, Erika, Auntie Kayo, Uncle Jim, Baachan, Jiichan, Chika, Tadashi, Maki, Waka, Janet, Jeff, Donna, and all my aunts and uncles on my dad's side.

My second family (close CS Friends): Bobby, Gavin, Mike, Josh, Jon, John, Faizal, Foster, and Howard. And Shirley, I love you so much!!

SJ Friends: Sara, Kootie, Kelly, Emilio, Joe, Wendy, Becky, Leslie, Joey, Shaun, Raymond, Kelly M., Jodi, Amy, Jonathon, JR, A'Shanti, Chris, Long, Billy, Ryan K., Jeannie, Dan, Howard, Sumati, Lienn, Donovan, and all the boys on the street (including Kirk).

LA Friends: Chrissy, Meghan, Bryan, Paul A., Mitch, Andrew, Chris, Nick, Asim, Orlando, Chris M., Steve, Paul, Neal, Andrea, and Ryan.

So there you have it. My comprehensive list of loved ones. So have a great Valentine's evening/night... make the most of it for me; I'll be studying through it. :p

It's amazing how happy one simple phone call can cheer you up, isn't it?? I got a sweet and good-news-filled phone call from Emilio this morning and I'm still floating. Even my water-logged shoes can't hold me down. I can't wait to see him in a little over a week!! And it doesn't even bother me that tomorrow's Valentine's Day anymore. *happy sigh*

If only guys knew how even the simplest little things can totally make a girl's day, I think the world would be a happier place. My roommate Chrissy got the SWEETEST email from her boyfriend the other night, and all it consisted of was "3 little words." And if guys could just SEE the expression on our faces when they do or say something sweet, I'm telling you, there's no reason they wouldn't do it more often. But then again, I guess if they did it *too* often, it would get old and stuff. Maybe guys know what they're doing, after all.... Nah. :)

Anyway, I've put off reading for my class too long now. Gotta go. Besides, Full House is on in an hour and a half. :) I hope everyone's having even HALF as good a day as I am!

My midterm has been moved to Thursday... or else it's been Thursday the entire time. Either way, I'm happy. :) A couple more days are ALWAYS welcome when studying for a hard midterm. Besides, I want to watch 7th Heaven tonight. For some reason, even though I don't have a Valentine this year, I'm dealing with it well and I'm looking forward to seeing the mushy, cutesy shows celebrating it. Kinda.

It's been raining all day. Last night was CRAZY, it was totally pouring! And every time I thought it couldn't possibly rain any harder, it would! And I hear it even snowed in San Jose last night! Like, Mt. Hamilton got like 6 feet!! I wish I was home... there's snow in the hill by our house, too!!! That and 2 tobaggans in the garage. Tobaggans are no good in water. Now, canoes, on the other hand....

STUDYING SUCKS!! I hate it so much! I don't like this class, and I wouldn't take it if I didn't have to to graduate. I don't care about compilers, I don't care how they work, and I don't care to do projects that force me to make them!!! I don't fully understand it, and I'm reading and re-reading and it's frustrating as hell!! Dammit.

What a difference a week makes. I'm no longer tanning on the roof, but bundled up in my apartment, wondering when it's going to start raining again. I don't mind. It IS February, after all. It's supposed to be like this -- yes, even in LA.

I found this cool new Add-On from Geocities that's a countdown to graduation! It's kind of ugly, but more eye-catching than just plain text. I don't like that it only gives you the number of days left instead of months and days, so I think I'll write the number of months underneath or something. The nice thing is, it updates itself. Javascript is awesome.

Anyway, pretty uneventful weekend, except dinner last night with Chrissy and Hoang. We finally took Hoang out for his 21st birthday, which was actually in December or something. We went to El Cholo and it was really yummy. I've been there one other time, but with not as good company. (If you remember who Marshall is, then you'll know why... STOP LAUGHING!) I have a midterm on Tuesday, and I should find a partner to work on our project soon. My roommate gets to go see her boyfriend in Princeton for the long weekend, the lucky duck!! I just want someone to go see Sweet November with me, and I know Emilio won't stand for it... unless he fails to bring me a Valentine, then maybe I can guilt him into going with me. But after Bounce, he swore to me, "Never again will I go see a chick flick with you." We'll see. I just want to see it!!

Well, back to studying. *sigh* Maybe I'll go eat something first. I'm kind of hungry. Have a good week!

Ahh, Friday. I love Fridays. I'm going to just one of my two discussions because we had a midterm yesterday, and that discussion is useless, anyway. :) Emilio was such a sweetheart yesterday and even this morning. My phone bill will be huge, but it's so going to be worth it when he walks down the hallway at LAX and I get to hug him hello in less than 2 weeks. :)

Anyway, just wanted to post and say everything is great for me today, even though we're in midterms and stuff. :) Have a great weekend!

My second Microsoft interview is officially April 20! That means I'll probably fly out on the 19th and come back to LA on the 22nd. :) That's after Spring Break... 3 weeks afterwards, in fact. 3 weeks into my LAST quarter at UCLA. It's weird, we have to plan our courses for next (last) quarter already, and it's weird to think: #1) I can get ANY class I want because I'm a graduating senior, and #2) I'll NEVER have to do it again!! Maybe I'll actually CALL URSA instead of doing it online... besides, my first pass is on the 26th at 6 in the morning... I don't want to turn on my computer just for THAT.

It rained today. Weird. I went to my grandma's to study, although all I did was eat and talk to my grandma. I think she's lonely now that she's alone. :( I like talking to her, even in my broken Japanese. :)

I saw a funny billboard today. There was this little scrawny-looking dog, like a chihuahua or something, with pointy little ears and a grandma-hat and a sweater and stuff... very undoglike. Then it said across the top: "Some dogs should be called cats." I laughed out loud in the car! Not many billboards can do that. But I was thinking, that ad didn't do much good. I was so busy laughing about it that I drove by it before I could see whose advertisement it was. :)

Anyway, I should be studying for my 8 am midterm. :p Wish me luck!

I got more information on my second Microsoft interview!! I'll be flying up to San Jose (sometime in April, or at least that's what I'm trying for) and they "suggest" I stay an extra day to "explore" San Jose! I get a rental car and everything! I'm so stoked! Free trip home, free hotel, free food, free car... and maybe a job, if I'm lucky!! Please keep your fingers crossed!

The heat wave has passed all too soon. It was freezing, especially in the evening!! And showers possible this weekend, too. Weird. I have my Algorithms & Complexity midterm on Thursday, so I'm heading to my grandma's house in Torrance tomorrow for my day off school (no class on Wednesdays) for good eats, good quiet, and maybe even good nap-time. :) I'm most excited for the good eats. :) Yummy.

STILL working on my project. Too bad I can't figure out how to test it. I mean, there's no output or something wacky like that. I guess I could be doing it all wrong, which would just figure.

Okay, now would someone in the Bay Area like to take a guess as to how hot it is today? Anyone? Okay, I'll just tell you. 86. For God's sake!!! If you round that number off, it would be 90!! Ack!! So I did the one thing that any good Californian would do in a situation like this: tanned on the roof. I took some of my reading for my CS class up there and read and tanned and listened to some Moby. It was nice. I got my reading done and looked over my hmwk.

Speaking of homework, I'm pissed off at that stupid CS 180 professor (who also barely passed me for the Operating Systems class) because he's giving us a midterm on Thursday, but is ALSO giving us a homework assignment due on Tuesday when we just turned another one in last Thursday! Okay, like we don't have other classes to take, too. JEEZ!!! So I have this project due Tuesday along with the homework, then the midterm (which will be very hard) on Thursday. I'm going to my grandma's on Wednesday for a change in scenery for a bit. And then after that midterm, I have to start studying for my OTHER midterm, which is the Tuesday of the following week. *sigh*

So I guess instead of bitching, I should get to work. Well, right after I get a nice, cold drink in my system. :) Stay cool, LA.

That quote pretty much sums it up. It's 80 degrees!! Never mind that it's the first week of February... it's hot enough even at the beaches to go lay out and tan. We've got fans going in here. Totally blue skies, no clouds, and the feel of summer (or at least Spring Quarter) in the air.

And what am I doing? I'm stuck inside, coding for my CS project!!! I'm still a little sick and stuff, but what a shame, man!! I have no motivation to do anything other than put on my swimsuit and lay out on the roof like Spring Quarter last year! Maybe I'll let myself do that tomorrow if I get some stuff done today. I have to start studying for my CS180 midterm that's this Thursday, anyway, so I can take a book up there and read while I'm tanning my back, then sleep while I'm tanning my front. :)

My roommate Chrissy just summed it up: "I can't believe how hot it is." On that note, have a good weekend, and enjoy this weather if you're in LA. :) Back to coding for me. :\

Not too good of a day. Not really bad, either, I guess, but just not too good. I'm sick, so that sucks. Thank God for DayQuil... too bad it costs so much money. But that's what got me through the full day on campus today. Not-too-happy call from home as I walked in the door. My nose is all chafed and sore from constantly blowing my nose. And I don't think I'll get that test code for Blizzard out at all, which isn't too big a deal... I wouldn't work in Irvine, anyway.

Last night, I went to see Traffic with Gavin, Mike, Mike, and two girls Andrea and Vanessa. I had heard it was a really good movie, and it WAS. I liked it a lot. I won't say anything about it because I want everyone to get a chance to see it first, but trust me, it's worth the money (which, even with student discount, was $7.00 at Century City!!). Very deep and involved, and after a lot of those mindless movies I've seen over the summer and stuff (i.e. Dude, Where's my Car?), it was very much appreciated.

Tonight's Survivor II!! Yay! And it's pretty much the weekend (just discussions on Friday), so that's good, too. I can get started on my compiler project (whoopee), even though the weather is supposed to be gorgeous this weekend. I even tanned a little today while I was out at Kerckhoff from 10-4. :) Only in LA....

Back to work. Have a good Friday!

I got an email from Blizzard Entertainment, asking me to write some code and with some specs on what it should do. I guess if I do a decent job, they'll get me to come in for an interview. Too bad it's really hard. I don't think the concept is hard or anything. I just think it's been WAY too long since I programmed in C++, especially using classes and templates and stuff. :\ Why in the world does UCLA make us take 2 whole quarters of C++ when every other class we program in has everything BUT C++?? Anyway, I don't know if I'd be interviewing for a job down in Irvine or the graphics stuff in San Mateo (probably Irvine 'cause they don't know I have any graphics background), and I would only want the job if it was in the Bay Area.

I'm stuck on the project I'm supposed to be working on for CS 132. :( AS USUAL. It's a sunny-but-cold day today, but at least it's warmer than yesterday. Tomorrow's Dad's 53rd birthday. That's about it from over here. :) Have a good day.

Another trough in the roller coaster of my life. Man, if I didn't know any better, I'd say it was happening like several times a day!! Anyway, I just can't stand it that some people think I'm being too picky and anal when I just want to have details worked out ahead of time, especially if it means we can save money!! Sometimes it's not best to wait till the last minute, you know?? I guess I have to get over it... some people!!

I dyed my hair today. I got a color that best matched what I imagine is my "natural" hair color. The hair that used to be streaked is still a little lighter, so it's not too overwhelming, and that's good. It seems darker than "natural," but I think it's mostly because I'm used to seeing all the lighter red/orange highlights on top. For the most part, I think it's actually fairly close, and now I won't have to worry about continuing to streak it every month or so (which costs money, and money is one thing I'm VERY low on since I bought my leather jacket). Besides, if I kept streaking it like I had been, ALL my hair would be quasi-bleached eventually, and that's just gross.

Gotta get back to reading. Damn, school is boring.

Whoopee, Super Bowl Sunday. The only things I was excited about were the commercials and seeing N*Sync perform at the Halftime Show. I was reading for my CS class most of the time and it was fine. It wasn't even as crazy as usual here in Westwood, so I guess it just wasn't a huge deal this year.

What I *was* looking forward to see was "Survivor II." Now, there's a quality show. We'll see if it's as good as the last one. I watched it at Theta Chi, so it was cool.

Last night was a lot of fun. We didn't end up going to bars, but we drank and watched The Devil's Advocate at Gavin, Mike, and Josh's. Lots of people, sick and disturbing movie, snacks and drink. It was great! :) I almost got a "swirly" (thanks to MICHAEL DALTON)... and if you're wondering what that is, well, let's just say, I didn't know until yesterday either, and I'm glad I didn't actually get one. :)

I have been eating like a bottomless pit lately, I don't know why! Oh, well. Other than that, I'm happy and excited because Emilio's definitely planning on coming down the last weekend of February, and that's regardless of if Jason comes... he asked for the time off himself! So I'm happy about that. He said anything I want to do is fine with him, and I'm just ecstatic!! As long as things stay good with us, I'll be very content. :)

*Deep Breath* 4th week begins tomorrow. Here goes nothing.

So forget last night's posting. If I didn't make a promise to myself that I would never erase something I had already put on the web, I would delete it in a second. But I'm feeling a little better now... just kind of insecure. I don't remember too much of what happened last night, despite my less-than-usual consumption of alcohol, which is slightly nerve-racking. I just vaguely remember calling Emilio, I hardly remember what was said, and I barely remember getting home. All I know is that I felt different when I woke up, like I should have something to be worried about. Weird.

So I'm hoping that hanging out with friends tonight will be just what I need. It'll keep my mind of things and people I shouldn't be thinking about -- things and people I can't be thinking about if I want to be happy.

So I was all prepared to read for my Compiler class, to keep up and catch up and stuff. So I laid out all my stuff on the floor, opened up the blinds and the window to let the sun in, and started to read and understand. 2 hours later, I woke up. I don't even remember falling asleep! But I remember it getting darker and colder with the clouds coming in. And now it's 4:54 pm on a Saturday and I just don't feel like doing anything. And tomorrow's the Superbowl and Survivor II, so it'l be hard to get stuff done. But I guess I'll try to study again between now and when we go out tonight... God knows I got enough sleep now. :)

Screw it. Is all this worth it? I went out to this new club and had a great time. But what did I have to do when I got to the parking lot? Call Emilio. Why? Your guess is as good as mine. And now I'm sitting here lonely and upset and, quite frankly, fuming. Regarding my quote for the day (well, for the morning), he hasn't really offered me love. He hasn't offered me anything worth sticking around for. He knows I've been hurt, and he knows that he's the one who's hurt me. But he doesn't try to make it better. He doesn't try to make me feel better, he doesn't tell me that I'm worth it, he doesn't tell me that he's taken me for granted, he doesn't tell me that I'm the best thing to have happened to him, he doesn't tell me that he loves me. And all those things he doesn't do are things that I deserve... things that he owes me, things I know are true. And do you know why I stick around? Because no one else would tell me that, either. And the one thing that Emilio does for me that I apparently can't get anywhere else? He makes me feel cared about. He'll call me. He'll keep up with what's going on in my life. He'll come visit me and spend time with me. He'll do just enough to make me wonder how much he cares or to keep me around. And that, sad as it may seem, is one better than anything any other guy in my life has done for me since college has started. And you all wonder why I'm so stuck on him. Give me one guy who has made me feel this special, that's made me feel like I matter, and I'd be at a loss for words. But you can't. Emilio is the only one. So leave me alone. Let me do what I want. Let me care about him until someone comes along and gives me a reason to believe that there is someone better out there for me because right now, I refuse to believe that I'll ever be completely happy with a guy.

-1 + 1 = 0. That's how the day was. Emilio can't come over the 3-day weekend in February, but his friends aren't moving to SD until at least after the summer's over. And if I'm lucky, he'll come visit the weekend after.

Rain all day. It's hard to look cute in the rain, but we all have to deal with it. :) There was a Media Career Fair today, but I only gave my resume out to one place: Blizzard Entertainment. I didn't realize how big a gaming company they were, but they're one of the best. That's cool. And I talked via email to a friend of a friend who works at EA Sports, too, another gaming company. It sounds pretty appealing, but we'll see who offers me the right amount of... "what's the term they use these days? Oh, that's right: cheddar." (10 points to whoever can tell me what movie that's from.) The Blizzard rep was kinda cute. That's why I stopped at that table. Hehe.

Tonight, I'm going to some party thing (VIP style, as always) with Bryan. Actually, I think Mitch, Pawel, Nick, and Pete are coming, too. Cool. So no line, no cover, and free drinks (hopefully). Some promotional thing. Cool with me. As long as it's free and I don't have to drive (or wait in the rain), I'm down. Just have to decide what to wear and just how much effort I'm willing to put in to look good tonight. I figure, showing up with 5 guys isn't going to help me get the guys to come running. *sigh* The consequences of having so many good looking guys as friends.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to tomorrow night and our CS night at the bars. :) Of course, some non-CSers are coming, but that's cool, too. Should be an interesting weekend. Need to get some work done... but gotta have fun, too!!

Ever since Disneyland last weekend, I've felt lighthearted and young. Yeah, yeah, it's not like I'm that old, but youngER. And today topped it off -- silly Gavin, starting a spontaneous game of tag!! And even SILLIER everyone-else, playing along!! But it was great, and makes me feel like a kid again. :) Thanks, guys.

I have the room to myself tonight and tomorrow night. My roommate's going home. And Saturday, a bunch of us are thinking about going to the bars (Gavin -- YOU ARE GOING!!!). Imagine a bunch of CS kids running amok while inebriated!! :) Could be bad news.

Thursdays feel like Fridays to me, for some reason. I mean, I have classes tomorrow and stuff, but it's just a couple discussions. It just doesn't feel like classes, I guess. :) And then it IS Friday. Yay! A rainy weekend, but then, maybe I'll get some stuff done. *yeah, right!* I can't wait... then it's 4th week ALREADY!! Sheesh.

Finished my CS 132 project #1, yay! I'm a little behind on my other stuff now, but shit happens. I have all of today and most of tomorrow to work on the hmwk, and I have to read for my stupid classes. But whatever.

What I REALLY need is food. I have to go grocery shopping tonight, and thank God for that. And I really want Emilio to come visit again over President's weekend because my roommate will be gone to New Jersey to see her boyfriend, plus it's the weekend after Valentines, but we'll keep that hush-hush. Hehe. Right now, I just want someone to want me... someone to take care of me and make me feel special.

Monday again. But the Monday after a long, eventful, generally happy weekend. I spent the majority of my weekend (from 9:00 PM Friday night till 6:00 PM Sunday night) with Emilio, Miguel, Holly, and Jason... mostly Emilio, of course. We went clubbing at the Key Club Friday night (and saw Shaq at Jerry's Famous Deli in Beverly Hills at 2:00 AM), to Disneyland on Saturday, and to Santa Monica on Sunday. And out of all the things I did this weekend -- out of all the places we went and the rides we went on and the times we spent laughing and talking and dancing -- I enjoyed Saturday night, when me and Emilio just sat and watched TV at the motel and ate Taco Bell, the best. I just enjoy being in his presence. I feel taken care of, safe, sometimes even loved. And I'm just so comfortable and happy when I'm with him, even if he's just standing by me or sleeping beside me.

But some things, I guess, just aren't meant to be. I don't know what's going to happen with us. There are a lot of things up in the air right now, and there's no way for me or even him to tell how it's going to be. But I've decided after much deliberation that if there's even the smallest chance that things will work out for us in the end, I'm willing to stick it out. We're not together; we're sort of dating, but definitely not exclusively (his choice) and we're definitely not boyfriend-girlfriend. But if the distance is what's keeping us apart, then shouldn't closeness bring us together? And whatever happened with that whole thing about love overcoming everything? What about love will prevail and all that bull? While I would hate for things not to work out for us in the end, I still can't make myself stop caring or loving him. And that's why I have to let myself feel what I feel. I know people think there's someone "better" for me out there, but you know, I'm really starting to doubt that soulmates are really as perfect as people might say or think. I think soulmates aren't totally happy all the time or have perfect relationships. I think soulmates are just as capable of having some differences and problems as any other couple. I think the only difference is the feeling you have. The feeling that there's nothing that will make you stop loving him, that you just can't see him enough, that there just isn't any way that anyone has ever loved someone else as much as you love him. Me and Emilio have problems, definitely. The problem is that we're too far apart, geographically. And the new problem is whether or not our futures are going to include each other. And to me, that's the hardest thing to deal with.

P.S. Anyone want to help me finish (start?) my compiler project #1??

I'm getting a second interview with Microsoft!! I can't believe it!! I thought I did so horribly, but I guess not!! I don't know for sure, but I *think* I'll be flown to the Bay Area because I kind of told them I would prefer to work for Hotmail and the Web stuff! Free flight home and a hotel?? I'll take it!! :)

Also, last night's date party was lots of fun! I ended up not going with Bobby because Amber's rush event wasn't as long as expected, but I went with one of the other guys in the house anyway, since I had the outfit already. In the end, I wasn't having as much fun, but that was because my date started trying to get on me, and was even a little freaky, asking me if he can call me today and stuff. But all in all, it was fun. We (me, Bobby, and Steve) got to dance to Britney Spears, so it was all good. See the pictures here.

Emilio and his friends are on the road AS WE SPEAK on their way down here. I'm so excited!! I should so be doing my project and stuff, but I'm all jumpy and stuff!! I want to pack and do all that kind of stuff. :) And Disneyland tomorrow, yay!! :)

Anyway, I'm glad the week is over. It was a short week, technically, but with all the stuff that went on, it felt so long!! Have a good weekend. :)

I had my Microsoft interview today, and man, the logic problem totally stumped me (click here to see the problem). I mean, I got it eventually, but it took me like a good 10 minutes, and it was a phone interview. I felt like I was on "Who Wants to be a Millionaire" because he kept going, "Tell me what you're thinking" and stuff, and I know it was more for the thought process than the answer, but I'm just no good put on the spot like that, which is why I like in-person interviews better. I mean, I get 1000 times more nervous for in-person interviews (and God knows, if you talked to me today before the phone interview, I was HELLA nervous -- to the point of nauseousness -- even for the phone interview), but at least I can bridge the GPA gap a little by using my charisma, right? I need something *other* than just my resume and logic-problem-solving abilities to rely on, and I've found that I can be quite an amiable person (is that right right adjective?) when I need to be.

Anyway, so after I finally fumbled my way through this logic problem, I was feeling pretty crappy about myself and wasn't so into the rest of the interview. I was able to hurdle the coding problem pretty well, I think, but man, that first problem threw me for a loop. If only I had gotten the one the rest of my friends had gotten... I had been able to get those *fairly* quickly, and the wording of that problem wasn't as reeling.

And this was after yesterday's rejection -- which I forgot to mention on yesterday's post -- when I was denied a position with IBM's graphics department. Suddenly, they didn't have a need for someone with my "talent" after all. Strange, isn't it? Actually, no. It's like, JUST TELL ME I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH!!! Sheesh.

So tomorrow's Evening with Industry, and I'll be sitting with IBM. Not that I'll be liking it anymore. But I still have *some* hope with the interview that went better than the graphics one last quarter. We'll see about that one, though. *sigh* How discouraging. I have to wear my interview outfit (black skirt, white shirt, black jacket (made in Italy! Ooo!), and NYLONS, for God's sake!) to my 4-6 class tomorrow 'cause I have to go straight to the dinner afterwards. Too bad it's FREEZING at night here.

But then I have to remember that I thankfully have a Date Party to go to right after the career fair. This Date Party (Theta Chi, not Sigma Nu) will be fun for sure because I'll be going with Bobby for a change. No worrying about whether or not they'll walk me home, try to get on me, or be goofy with me. And I'll get to drink a little and relax after these past few bad days. Then I get to see Emilio and go clubbing on Friday and Disneyland is ALWAYS a picker-upper so yeah, I can forget about the project I have to do by Tuesday. :) Hehe. I borrowed Regina's (Bryan's ex) navy blue snakeskin-patterned pants and I'm still trying to decide what to wear on top. I'm definitely wearing my silver glitter shoes... the theme is "Party like a Rock Star" or something, so just flashy make-up, fakey accessories, and a wacky outfit should do. I think it would be funny for someone who will see me at 6 PM in my demure interview outfit, then again at around 10 PM in my "rock star" outfit. I should think of something wacky to do to my hair so even Bobby will be surprised (he'll be at both functions). :)

Anyway, enough procrastination. I have to read the parts of the book that I think will be quizzed tomorrow because our moron professor doesn't have the lecture schedule up yet but will test us anyway. Jerk. I gotta remember... there's light at the end of the dark tunnel I seem to find myself in most of the time.

I got my first scratch on my poor car today... on the passenger side rear wheelwell. :(... I'm sooooo sad!!! It's mostly because of the parking arrangement in the apartment building, and the car behind mine wasn't backed up as far as it usually is, so I had to make a tighter turn when getting back into the space to avoid the wall on the left and the pole on the right. Well, I hit the pole. I'm so upset!!!

Today's a really bad day for me. And it's not even a Monday (even though it feels like it)!! I guess I should be glad that I don't have class tomorrow, but I'll be nervous the whole time 'cause I'll have my Microsoft interview at 4:30. I just want this week to be over. It's already a short week, so why not just skip straight to the weekend?? I just want to see Emilio.

After a full day of looking at expensive, sexy, fast cars, I have to admit, the gold-digger in me is surfacing (in case you couldn't tell by the quote of the day). :) To see the pictures, check them out here. It was so awesome.

Last night, we went to a gay club/bar in Silverlake. The thing was, we didn't *know* it was what it was. It was actually a lot of fun. The four of us (Bobby, Bryan, Karen, and me) just took in the scene, drank a little, and hung out. Definitely an experience. :)

No class tomorrow!! Woo hoo!! I love having a long weekend, then having a short week to go with it! What a bonus, man! I have quite a busy week. I have another Microsoft phone interview on Wednesday, Evening with Industry Thursday night, a Theta Chi date party after that, and I think Emilio and his friends will be getting to LA Friday night. We're going to Disneyland!! Yay!!!

Anyway, better go read or do *something* productive. :) Check out those pictures!!! I went to a lot of trouble to put them up! :)

One week down, nine to go. For the first time in my college career, I'm completely caught up at the end of first quarter! And this first weekend back is MLK Day, so we get a three day weekend, woo hoo!!!! I'm so glad. I have this one class that's only on Monday from 12-1, so I don't have that class at all next week. :) And then, on Wednesday, I have another Microsoft phone interview. *gulp* Not expecting anything, but you never know. :)

This weekend is apparently the LA Car Show, so I might get to go with Bryan and Bobby this weekend. Yay! I love car shows. Maybe I'll have tons of pictures on my page this weekend. :)

My classes are definitely going to be hard this quarter (aside from my Film/TV class). It's hard to stay focused in class, not to mention reading the course material. I just can't WAIT till midterms and finals. But the thought of graduation is spurring me on, and believe me, it's the best motivator in the world. :)

Anyway, so far, so good. Playing with Flash and making some pretty cool-looking Flash Movies, if I do say so myself. :) Have a good long weekend!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! And better yet, HAPPY 2001!! The countdown to graduation has begun! :)

I'm back in LA already... classes start tomorrow. I'm only going to be taking 10 units this quarter because we're (7 of us) taking the dreaded CS 132: Compiler Construction. Rumored to be the hardest computer science course taught at UCLA, I don't think there's a single person honestly looking forward to this class, except for the company of our friends. We'll take up the entire back row of the class, I'm sure.

I have just a few pictures from break... 6 to be exact. Check them out.

I got books for one of my classes today... my Algorithms and Complexity class. It's not a bowl of cherries either, or at least, so I hear. One of the books is one of the largest I've ever owned, I think. It's bigger than our massive calculus book. Let me see how many pages... 1027. I guess it's just thick pages or something. Oh, well. It's still bigger than my C reference book, so that says a lot.

Anyway, as burnt out I am with school (and trust me... I'm so not eager to lectures and tests... this is the worst it's ever been), I guess there's nothing I can do. I gotta keep telling myself, just 2 more quarters, less than 6 more months. Keep rooting for me!! :)

Do you SEE the hysteria???? WE CAN!!!! We're going insane here!!! FINALS SUCK!!!! We're all quite delirious and stressed out on this end.

This round of finals definitely isn't going too well for me. So far, I'm 0 for 2 as far as kicking ass. And I'm so frustrated that I'm losing motivation for my hardest final this quarter, which happens to be tomorrow at 3 pm. I can't even pull an all-nighter, which to me sounds *almost* appealing since I have about a gallon of caffeine coursing through my veins right now (and I'm about to add to that amount in a bit). At least if it was an 8 am final, I could stay up all night, cramming, and just get it over with. Alas, I can't. It's from 3-6, and there's no way I can pull that off, even with all the caffeine in the world. So I'm going to stay up till about 4 or so, sleep till about 9, and cram again. Gotta keep telling myself that after this final, just one more to go, and that one, I don't even really have to study for. I get a full night's sleep tomorrow (FINALLY!!), as much as I want, and then I get to pack for home on Thursday, getting in a little bit of study time for Sociology at night or something.

I finally got my new cell phone to work yesterday!! I'm finally downloading my own rings and sporting a cell phone not much bigger than my already-small pager. Yee haw! Can't wait to use it with my little teeny going-out purse... I'll actually be able to put OTHER stuff in it!! :)

I can't wait till Friday... the final "won't take more than an hour and a half" according to the professor, so that means I should be out in about an hour, which means I can be on the road as early as 1 pm, meaning I can beat Friday traffic out of LA!! WOO HOO!! Bay Area traffic isn't NEARLY as bad, so I'm pretty excited. I SO need that drive... I'll get to clear my head and listen to MY music, I can't wait!! I'm already planning which CDs I'm going to put in my changer. Woo hoo!!! And I'll even have my phone to talk on if/when I get bored! I just want finals to be over! In fact, at this point, I just want more than 4 hours of sleep a night. That's all I'm asking!! And if the pictures of our study session (as seen here), Midnight Yell, and my quote for the day don't show the insanity here in Westwood, I don't know what will.

Wish me luck tomorrow... and pray for me at 3. I'm going to need all the divine intervention I can get.

School royally sucks. I'm not kidding. It's the morning of the last day of 10th week. I can't believe it!! Today through next Friday morning, I will constantly be studying, except for Thursday when I have a day of no finals, and I'll probably pack for my trip home. I honestly have to study constantly, as in, "What the hell am I doing updating my webpage, I should be studying right now!!" Screwing up my priorities is my specialty, what can I say? Apparently, I have a deathwish because if I don't get my ass in gear, I will be taking 18 units next quarter, and hello, what kind of moron would take 3 CS classes (unless you're Mike Dalton, who *has* to do it to graduate)??

Surprisingly, though, as burnt out I am, as strung out I've become, as thin as my patience has worn, I'm still in a relatively good mood. Maybe that breakdown on Tuesday really helped. :) Hehe. It's hard to believe that I'm done with classes after today. Like, the weekend of studying will pass (eventually... hopefully...), and Monday will come. I'll have my final 8-11, and NO CLASS. Tuesday will come. NO CLASS, final from 3-6. Wednesday will come. NO CLASS, final 3-6. Thursday will come. NO CLASS. Period. Friday will come (not soon enough). NO CLASS. Final from 11:30-2:30. THEN I DRIVE HOME!! For three glorious weeks. I can't WAIT.

Anyway... so this year, I'm without my mistletoe headband. :( I'm so sad. But I have an ALMOST as cool antler/Santa hat headband for tomorrow.

Oh, and I almost forgot! My sister Erika got her license today!! YAY, ERIKA!!! Congrats!! So stay off the roads and sidewalks if/when you're driving in San Jose. Be on the lookout for a BMW just like mine, only dark grey. :)

Okay, the caffeine high is starting to wear out, and I have to get a LITTLE more studying in tonight, so I'll stop here. Wish me luck on my finals!! And if you've got finals, too, good luck!! If I don't post by the 20th of December, send in a search and rescue team. I should be home by the night of the 15th or the 16th. Until then....

What a day. I had a sort of emotional breakdown today. It was really quite unexpected. I didn't do well on a midterm that we got back today, so I'm really stressed out about that class now. It's one of those classes where it doesn't matter HOW much you study or HOW hard you try, you just can't do well in it. And then I've got all these other things on my mind... finals coming up, projects all due at the same time, time conflicts, sick of school... and all that is leading to more internal yukkiness. But today, after class, I had to meet my management group (Gavin, Josh, and Jon), and I wasn't feeling particularly moody or anything, just a bad day from getting that midterm back and not being able to get one of our projects to do what we want it to do in the labs (even though it works in the TA's office), but when I got to the room we were meeting in, I just started crying. I haven't cried like that for a long time, about school and stress and pure helplessness. I guess it's just that these next two weeks actually affect the rest of my life, like, literally. If I don't pass this class, I'll have to come back NEXT fall, meaning I can't just start working, I'd have to find a place to live for just one quarter, etc. etc.

But anyway, that's not my point. My point is, I have these awesome friends. Jon offered to tutor me in that class, even though he has his own finals and isn't even taking this class this quarter (he took it last quarter). Josh gave me a backrub that relaxed me beyond belief. Gavin listened (and still does) to what I had to say, and he holds me when I need to cry. I don't know what I would do without my friends. If I couldn't cry on someone's shoulder like I did today (on three shoulders), I just don't know what I would have done. I'm so strung out, and I needed that breakdown so bad, I didn't even know it! Now I have a clearer mind, and I can see (for now) what I have to do and get on things... I just hope I don't have to breakdown again any time soon. :)

I have to admit, though. I wish someone had a camera when I walked into that room and started crying... to see a mass group hug from smallest to biggest (me, then gavin, then josh, then jon), arms everywhere. It must have been a sight. :)

Isn't it weird how I so diligently update this webpage even though I know that only maybe 2 people will read this post, EVER? I guess it's more for me than anything, this webpage thing, with the postings and the time it takes to keep it up. I know most people only come to this page for the pictures, if at all, and that's cool, too, because it's nice to know people are curious about my life and my friends, all that good stuff. But it's like, the one time I'm going to write something that I wished no one would read, everyone's going to come online and go to my page, you know? Murphy's law, dammit all to hell.

So this page isn't really real, then, or is it? Because if I don't feel like I can really put down my REAL feelings because certain people might read it, then it's not real!! (Whoa, that was redundant.) But it's not that the things I write aren't real. I just don't write EVERYTHING. So that means it's not not-real, just not complete. That makes me feel better. I'm just babbling. Procrastinating. Finals is coming up.

So yesterday was the BBQ and Karaoke night with my CS friends. Pretty much all my close CS friends were there, minus Bobby and John, and a couple people I've grown apart from during my 4 years like Oren, Astha, and Neal. It was so much fun, and we all had a blast! See? CS majors can have fun, too!! :) Singing songs at the tops of our lungs, crazy songs, too, it was awesome. And we weren't half bad, especially the duet songs!! Lots and lots of fun, I'm so glad I have friends like them. :) See the pictures!

Yeah, I did a double-take, too. I can't believe it's DECEMBER. Already!! It was such a big deal to get to the year 2000... everyone coming to REI when I was working last December, buying out all the propane and stoves and batteries and flashlights because everyone was so insanely scared that Y2K was going to be Armaggedon or something. And now we're on the brink of 2001!! (And 24 shopping days left till Christmas, guys!!) It's going to be a big year... college graduation. Ack!!

Tonight's the BBQ! Yay! I SO need to relax and have fun, and it'll be so nice 'cause it's a different circle of friends. This quarter is totally draining me, man.

Anyway, that's about it. :) Have a great weekend... my last before finals. :p

I got my cell phone in the mail today!! It's not functioning yet 'cause of a slight complication, but at least my old phone is still in use while I'm waiting. And I'm just way excited that it's just a matter of a few days at the most anyway. Yay!!! It's the same thickness of my pager (which is tiny, too), and the same width, just longer. And I found a transparent light blue faceplate that would fit my phone on Amazon, too!! Woo hoo!! It's been a very up-and-down day, but overall, up. :) And tomorrow's Friday, and you can't get much more UP than that. :)

And not only is tomorrow Friday... it's the first day of December!!! November went by really quick, at least for me. I could swear it was my birthday like a week ago. Weird.

Anyway, my eyes are drying out 'cause of my contacts, so I think I'll stop now. I've been looking forward to tomorrow ALL WEEK. Happy Friday, everyone!!

Our cable went out today, but then the cable guys came out tonight at like 9:30 and fixed it for us!! It was awesome! Good service, and nice guys, too. Good thing... my roommate Christine would have killed if she missed the 6 pm AND the 11 pm showing of "Blind Date." :)

I enrolled in my 4th class for next quarter today. History of the Third Reich and the Jews. It fits horribly in my schedule, but due to the unfortunate circumstance of CS 132 not being offered next quarter (most likely), we've all been forced to take on crazy $hitty schedules for next quarter, trying to juggle around the few classes we all have left to take so we can graduate on time. Thanks a lot, school of engineering... FOR NOTHING!! So I have these huge gaps in my schedule: 3 hours on Mondays, 4 hours on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And THEN, I only have class at 4-6 on Wednesdays, and on FRIDAYS, I have 8-10, 12-2!!! What a crock!!! *sigh* At least Bobby will be in one of my classes with me. And I think the 2 unit Screenwriting class could be lots of fun, and even if it's not, it's only one hour a week, no midterm, no final. Woo hoo!! But those two CS classes will be killer. I was trying to keep them separate for a reason, but I'll be taking Automata Theory and Algorithms & Complexity concurrently.

Welp. That's about it. I should do a little reading or something, but I don't really feel like it. I might just go to bed in a little bit. I have this nagging feeling I should be doing something more productive, but oh, well. I'll live. :) It's 9th Week... gotta relax while I can... relatively speaking.

Where did the "long" weekend go?? Thanksgiving break is a joke. We pay for totally over-priced tickets to fly home for a measly 4-5 days, put up with ridiculously clogged airports and traffic, and eat WAY too much for our own good. Isn't the American public obese anyway??

I didn't do too much this weekend. It was nice. I slept in, read Harry Potter #4, ate like never before (seriously), saw a couple movies, saw even more videos, and pretty much sat on my butt. It was nice. Over way too quickly, but hey, that's life. We (my dad, sister, and I) went to the car show at Moscone Center in San Francisco on our way to Thanksgiving dinner with my aunt, uncle, and grandpa on my mom's side of the family. See the pictures from the show. I went a little BMW-happy... not too many pictures of the other cars. Sorry. :)

So two more weeks of instruction and then finals week. Then I'll be on the road, driving home for 3 wonderfully school-free weeks. My last Christmas Break. Ever. How sad (not really). I'm just glad I won't have to fly like I had to today. It took me 4½ hours door to door. I should have just driven. Sheesh. Damn LA and all of its drivers!!!

Anyway... I guess that's about it. :) Pray that it gets cold in LA soon... I want to wear the sweaters I brought back from home!! :) I miss you, San Jose!

T-minus 3 hours and 40 minutes till my plane is supposed to take off (and counting). It's been a hell of a day so far... midterm at 8 am, paper due at 11 am, project presentation at 12:15. I still don't feel like I should be going home for Thanksgiving! Maybe it's the sunny, warm weather we've had the last couple of days, or maybe I'm just finally getting used to being in LA for 3 months at a time (now that it's my last year). Whatever the case, even as I sit here writing this, I feel like I'm not leaving today.

But I'm not complaining at all. I need this break. I am sooooo burnt out. The workload is getting to me in a bad way. I'm glad I get to leave early (Tuesday for a change) and I don't have to do ANY school work this entire weekend!! That's unprecedented for me. :) I actually feel like I'm going to miss people here in LA even though it's a measly 5 days apart from them. But Gavin and I were walking to class yesterday, and he made me realize how perfectly happy I am with my current circle of friends. I told myself my first year not to only associate with CS majors, and I don't feel that I've violated that; I live with three north campus majors, for God's sake!! But I also feel like I have more of a connection with my CS friends. I've somehow managed to find not just one other person with my wacky sense of humor and happy-go-lucky outlook on life, but a whole group of them!! Even in a school as big as UCLA, it still baffles me, but I'm not going to ask questions because it's so great to hang out at Kerckhoff patio and have people come and go, and just hang out, talking in obnoxiously loud voices and amid constant sarcasm and laughter. We're all studious without being anti-social. We're intelligent people who can not only study together but go hang out and party together, too. I feel so comfortable with my CS friends, and I guess it's that common bond that we feel, especially when we're agonizing over homework problems, projects, and midterms. Misery loves company, right? Well, it's totally true. I love you guys!!!

So anyway, I'll be heading to San Jose soon, my carry-on luggage in tow, earphones in place, purse slung over my shoulder, and Harry Potter #4 under my arm. Have a great Thanksgiving (or Lazarow Pizza night), everyone!! I'll miss you LA guys, but San Jose people, I'll be home tonight!!

I feel like just taking the easy way out and just giving up on all this crap I have to do before I go back home for Thanksgiving. I'm heading home on Tuesday, so it's only like a day and half left, but I have so much to do, and I'm just so sick of school and LA and everything.

But anyway, it was a nice weekend, even though it would have been nicer if I didn't have so much to do. Meghan and Bobby were both here for the UCLA vs. U$C festivities, so we got to go out to dinner last night, then to parties and bars. Then today, we met up again for lunch, too. Bobby's only going to be in Austin for another month or so, and I can't wait till he gets back!! We'll finally get to take a class together again, and it's going to be great!!

Today was a pretty crappy day, or at least it's ending that way. And I just want to go to bed and just start over tomorrow. Maybe I'll do that. I can't wait to go home, where I won't have to do ANYTHING.

7th week is 4/5 over. I'm soooo sleepy. But a week from today, I'll be stuffed fuller than the turkey I would have just eaten. But anyway.

So I have DSL now!! Woo hoo!! I got a 100' cable and connected to the other roommates' room. :) And hopefully soon, I'll have a new Nokia 8260 for a good price. Woo hoo!!

Anyway, I have some pictures of my friends up on my pictures page now, you should check it out. And I enroll in my next quarter's classes tomorrow. Gahhh....

And I'll be home on Tuesday night, yee haw!! Too bad I have a midterm that day AND a paper due, but whatever. And go Bruins 'cause we're playing U$C on Saturday!! Sorry so sporadic... feel like I'm doing 9 things at once. I'll write when I'm more sane... if it ever happens.

Happy 21st Birthday, Meghan!!! :) I can't wait till you get here next weekend so we can finally go to the bars together (legally this time)!!! :)

I'm a little anxious and restless today. Luckily it's a long weekend because when I woke up today, I had this sinking feeling like, "Oh my God, I have to read 3 chapters in my OS book today" but then I realized, hey, it's Saturday!! Thank goodness for 3-day weekends. It's an ideal situation for me to get stuff done 'cause Chrissy went home for the day, but I can't concentrate right now. I've read like half a chapter so far... I've gotta do this!!! I'm almost out of things to procrastinate with, so that's a good thing. :) They're just playing all these good songs on the radio and I'm sitting here just singing along!!

I talked to A'Shanti the other day!! I was so excited!! Him and Chris are doing well and we all exchanged email addresses. They have an album coming out in a bit!! I can't believe it!! I'm going to try to hook them up down here with that DJ "friend" I have at the popular radio station. :)

It's sunny but brisk here. I love it! It reminds me of high school, when it was cold and we'd walk to classes and stuff. And it gets downright cold at night, and it's really nice!! And what's crazy is, I'll be home in a week and a half... already!! I'm looking forward to that. Not too long a break, but a break nonetheless. And that day that I leave, I have a midterm at 8 am and a paper due, but at least that means I won't HAVE to study while I'm home, even though I should, at least while we're in San Bruno on Thanksgiving day. And we get to go to a car show, too, so I'm totally stoked about that!! WOO HOO!!

Anyways, I should really get back to work. Man, I've heard this song 3 times today already!!!! If THAT's not indication that I've got no life, I don't know what is. :) Take care, and I hope it rains!!

I think I'm going to make Mad Season my motto song for my life. All the lines are totally right on for me! Whatever, I'm dumb. Anyway, so yeah, school's getting a little old here. I'm feeling way swamped with work, but senioritis is making it hard to concentrate unless it's down to the wire and I start freaking out. I'm glad we get tomorrow off, even though it would have just been two discussions if I had to go to class anyway. And Thanksgiving is coming up pretty quick, so I'm glad about that break to look forward to. Too bad I have a research paper (what's a paper??) and a midterm before that. *sigh*

I'm thinking about going to the bars tonight if I can convince Chrissy to come with me. She hasn't been out at all when she was studying for the GREs, but they were over last Saturday, so I think we definitely need to go out. I've never been to bars with her before. But we'll see. We both had 8 am classes today, so maybe we'll just crash early.

Next weekend, Meghan and Bobby will be visiting!! Yay!! The USC game is that weekend. I'm not going to the game, but it's probably just as well because I have another midterm in that class I'm totally having a hard time with on that Tuesday (which happens to be the day I fly back to San Jose!!). Then we'll all go to bars together, the three original roommates of apartment 305! :) That should be fun. I don't know what I'll be doing this weekend other than going up to the Valley tomorrow to work on a project (for this STUPID CLASS!!) with John. At least I'll get to drive a little, woo hoo! I love driving. :) Then I have no plans for the rest of the weekend. I should get ahead on my reading... and catching up will probably be a good idea, too. :)

Anyway, I haven't gotten many postings on my guestbook... what's going on?? Is there life out there?? Let me know how you're all doing!

Midterms have a way of making me feel pretty stupid. And projects, too. Actually, CS 111 in general makes me feel stupid. All I want is to do well enough to pass. :) Ah... senioritis. Has it really been 4 years already???

I had an interview with Collegehire and IBM yesterday, and I have another IBM interview (another department) in about 30 minutes. The Collegehire one was a makeshift interview. It's cool, what they do is amass all these resumes from all these college grad-to-bes and they distribute and set up interviews with companies so it's easier for everyone. They interview people to get an idea of how much, where we want to work, what we want to do, hobbies, etc. so the companies know what to expect or can specify what they want. They just recruit. So anyway, I actually got interviewed by the CEO of Collegehire. Cool, huh?? He's really funny, and he put on an info session yesterday that was pretty informative, about not selling ourselves short, blah blah blah. The IBM interview yesterday was for a graphic design position, miraculously, and I had gone in not even planning on mentioning my graphics interest 'cause I have no background!! The guy told me that I have a quality that most graphics people don't have: technical experience. We'll see what happens.

My interview today is some kind of software development thing or something. I'm a little more nervous about this one, probably 'cause it's had more time to fester in my mind. Oh, well. I guess I better get over it.

Well, I guess I should get ready. Go talk to myself in the mirror in the bathroom or something. :) I hope no one walks in. Hehe. Wish me luck!

Happy Halloween!! :) I have a midterm in my intro to soc class in T-minus 50 minutes, but I really don't want to study, nor do I feel the need to. It's INTRO, hello, plus I'm taking it P/NP. I guess I should at least look over my notes that I typed up last night. *sigh*

I'm soooo tired!! I thought it was because of my crazy party weekend (and my 8 am class this morning), but when I really think about it, I think it's just because it's 5th week (FIFTH ALREADY!!), and judging by everyone else's eyes (or at least the bags under them), I'm not the only one. I can't believe midterms have already snuck up on me. I had one last week, but that's the class where everything's all wacky anyway. I have one today, one tomorrow, a project due Friday, and another midterm next Monday. That Monday one will definitely be a killer unless I totally study all weekend for it. *sigh²* And my friends who are in that class with me are going to be in Vegas that weekend, so that really sucks. :( And that project due Friday? Well I have no idea how to work on it, so I'm going to my TA's office hour today after my midterm. Arg!! I can't wait till Thanksgiving!! I'll be home for 5 nights, and then when I get back here, it'll just be two weeks of instruction and a week of finals, then I'm back for 3 luxurious weeks!! And I decided I don't want to work for the holidays like last year, so that's that. :)

ANYWAY... I guess I should study. :(...

Arg, this time change is affecting me more than I thought. I thought if I stayed up really late a couple nights, it wouldn't phase me. But walking home from my 4-6 o'clock class today, I realized... DAMN it's dark!!

But anyway, I had a wonderful weekend. My first weekend as a full-fledged adult! I spent it with very unlikely people. None of my normal crowd at all. But it was very nice, and very unproductive, and very unrestful 'cause I kept going out late, but c'est la vie, I suppose. And now I have midterms and projects and the REAL WORLD to deal with... no more dreamy weekend days until next weekend. :( *sniff* But anyway, it rained and I liked it and I had fun and I liked it. So yay me! I hope everyone else had a good weekend, too!

Well, everyone, welcome to my new (and improved?) website!! It's kinda cool, huh? A new look for a new age because I'M TWENTY-ONE! :) I was just kinda sick of looking at the gloomy navy blue that I had been using before. And on top of that, I couldn't use NEARLY as many font colors on a navy blue background as I can on a white one! Hehe.

So in case you missed the "new stuff" section on the main page, I've put up a few of the many pictures from my 21st birthday. They're all from the bar at midnight, not from dinner, but I'll be putting more pictures up soon, so never fear. You can see them here!

So yeah, let me know what you guys think of the new look! Let me know by posting on the guestbook or by emailing me!!