Here are the posts I made between October 24, 1999 and October 16, 2000.
Just wanted to write about my weekend. I got Linux installed on my computer finally, but at the expense of my dignity. I experienced my first encounter with sexual discrimination ever, and it was because I'm a girl CS major. Needless to say, I went home and donned my "boys are stupid" t-shirt and sat around the house.
Other news: This is my last week as a kid, and I mean it this time. A week from today, I turn the big 2-1!! Yup, I'll finally be legally allowed to drink alcohol and gamble and all that jazz! Crazy how I still feel like I'm 11 or something. But I guess along with the package of graduation comes the responsibility of adulthood. :p
Anyway, just letting you all know that I'm still around! My only motivation right now is my birthday and Bobby coming to visit this weekend and Emilio coming down to see me in LA for the first time in the 2˝ years that I've known him. :) Take care. I'll try to update again before next week, but this might very well be my last post as a kid!!! :)
My computer had to be reformatted yesterday. :( I'm here in the lab downloading a bunch of stuff onto ZIP disks so I don't have to download everything through my slow-ass modem at the apartment. I can't believe I lost so much stuff on my computer. It's scary how dependent I've become on computers. All my addresses, email addresses, my resume, my emails, pictures, files, lecture notes, everything. Anyway, if you happen to check this site, can you please send me your email address, AOL screen name, and/or ICQ numbers please? I'm trying desperately to get back on the ball. Thanks. Also, anyone who can help me with linux, I'm trying to install it on my machine so I won't have to come to the labs all the time... and I think that's what started my computer not working anymore... please try and help me. :( Thanks.
Ack!! I had this weird glimpse into the future, which is apparently the here-and-now, yesterday. Let me explain. I had my senior portraits taken yesterday here at the campus photo place. I went in without any second thoughts... the only thing I did differently with myself was actually blow-dry my hair in the morning so that it didn't flip in all those weird ways like it tends to do, and applied a little concealer (bad ZIT day). So I go in, talk to Chrissy for a bit 'cause she works there, and then go into the shooting room (that sounds bad) when it was my turn. The guy helps me put on my graduation gown (OVER the clothes, folks!!), puts on the collar thing (orange for the school of engineering, yuk), and tells me to look in the mirror to make sure everything was the way I wanted it. I did, and it was fine. We took 4 poses. Then we had to take 4 with the cap on, as well. So we go back to the mirror and he tells me to choose which way I wanted to wear it. After I do, he tells me to fix my hair the way I want it and stuff and goes to get the camera ready. I look in the mirror, and all of a sudden, I felt like I was looking at myself 5 years from now. It was really, really weird. I had my tassle hanging by my face, the gown on, it was a full-effect kind of thing. It reminded me of high school in our econ class, when they handed out our caps and gowns and everyone was trying them on in class and we were all excited. Only this time, I was alone, only the mirror and me and I felt like I should just be STARTING college, not GRADUATING from it. I guess this 5-year-into-the-future me is really me now, the one that everyone sees; I just didn't realize how differently I see myself. I think it will be equally weird when I get my proofs in.
*sigh* Anyway, then I got over it and went to class. Class has a way of abruptly intruding on fantasy. That and putting you to sleep.
I have a meeting with my counselor today at 2, then I'm going back and catching up with my reading (or at least trying). And I'm actually turning down a major party Thursday for studying. Man, I MUST be a senior!! I'm over the partying thing (at least the urge to party 24/7) for the most part. Crazy. And I get to hang out with family Saturday. AND my birthday's coming up! WOO HOO!!! :) Take care, all. I'll hopefully talk to you soon.
Hello, all, and welcome to my SENIOR YEAR!!!! I'm back in LA for my 4th and final year in college. Classes just started Thursday, and I have yet to meet two of my four professors, so I'm still not really "settled" in yet. We (Chrissy and I) bade farewell to our roommate from last year Meghan (who graduated early, go Megs!) and greeted our two new roommates Jenny and Christine! They're both 3rd years. Jenny's an art major with an anthropology minor and Christine is a sociology and history double major. All these motivated people in my apartment! If you paid attention last year, you'll know that my roommate Chrissy is a psychology/sociology double major. Such super-motivated and super NON-ENGINEER roommates I have!! :) So yeah, our apartment is Jennifer, Jenny, Christine and Chrissy. Could get a little confusing. :)
Things are good here in Westwood. I'm seeing everything in a different light now that I know that I'll be gone for good in less than a year. Just when I got used to it here! :) Last night, we attended a UCLA football night game against Arizona State... we came back from a 0-21 slaughter to a 38-31 victory!! GO BRUINS!! The tailgate was fun and the game was a blast!
This will prove to be a difficult quarter, but it's not going to get any easier after this quarter, either. :( That's okay. My motivation is that I'll be walking to Pomp and Circumstance with my fellow engineers in Pauley Pavilion on June 16, 2001. I can't believe it's coming so soon. I just ordered my class ring... I'm so old!!!!
AND!!! It's officially October... 22 days till my 21st birthday!! Ack, I don't know how much more excitement I can take! I hope everyone in San Jose is doing well! Here's to a successful, fun quarter (sans Bobby... *sniff*)!! 4.0, baby!! LOL!!!!
Well, actually, I'm just kidding. But my boss AND Shirley are gone (Shirley for good... she's back in SLO) today, and there are only four people on the web dev team! Oh, well. Two more days and I'm done with work for the year! Yay! (Be sure to check out the candid picture of me and Shirley on the pictures page!)
Anyway, Bobby, I hope you're reading this page from Austin!! You better be!! Otherwise, what good will it do me to put up pictures from parties and get-togethers when I'm back in LA?? :) Bryan's coming back to Fremont Sunday for the week, so we're going to go hang out, with or without Rachel. I'm sure we'll think of some creative pictures to take and I'll put them up on the site. If they're too scandalous, I'll make a disconnected page and tell you what the url is... not that we'd do anything scandalous!! :) Sign my guestbook!!
Coffee is a good thing. I'm so tired today! And this weather is gross... all muggy and gloomy. And my allergies are totally killing me! :p I can't wait till I get back to LA where there's no foliage and therefore no pollen. Hehe, totally kidding. UCLA is beautiful. :)
Speaking of school, I now have an official reg status sheet printed up and it says SENIOR on it!!!! WOO HOO!!!! Talk about motivation, I'm almost outta here, man!!! Even though I knew I was senior status, it's so different to actually SEE it on paper!!
Okay, enough procrastinating. I just don't think it'll take me very long to do my assigned task for the day. Take care, and I'll put more pictures up as I get them. :)
My last week of my summer internship. Bittersweet. For the money I'm getting paid, the work isn't bad at all. I love keeping busy with my new job in web development, and it's actually really interesting and really good experience for me to boot. Shirley's last day is tomorrow, then Asim and I have two days more, then that's it. I'm heading back down to LA not this weekend but the weekend of the 23rd sometime.
I got a digital camera this weekend, so there should be more pictures coming up on this site really soon, more recent pictures of my friends and stuff. It's such a hassle to have to scan pics and stuff, but with this new awesome camera, it's straight onto my hard drive! Looking forward to that.
My dad's car should be here soon! That's what I'm waiting for, and it's the reason I don't know exactly which day I'm heading back. I'm really looking forward to school... it's been a kinda crazy summer (as usual) and I'm anxious for the "routine" of college life.
Anyway, I'll update again soon, hopefully later tonight if I get some cool pictures. :)
Another boring day... pay day, but another boring day, nonetheless. *sigh* I talked to my roommates (well, one current and one ex) last night on the phone... it was good to hear their voices and it almost felt like I was there again. At the very least, I wanted to be there.
My previously-thought lack of lovelife surprised me last night by becoming MORE than dead. Out of nowhere, Devin, with whom I've had an on-again, off-again thing with, called to tell me his new Berkeley phone number... and that some girl he was in "kinda seeing" mode with has moved in with him and Dave. How interesting. So that threw me for a loop, and I hung up on him to tend to my pounding head and sudden dizzy spells caused by the initial blow. I think of it as a cheap shot.
I've been thinking about which new BMW I want to buy next year. The specs for the new M3s aren't out on the BMW site yet, but I think if I couldn't afford an M3, I would find myself very happy with a 2001 330Ci. My dad wants to convince me to get the 323Ci (which will be the 325Ci next model year) like my aunt just got, and it's really nice, I admit it. But looking at the technical specs of the 330, for the extra $6,000, I think the improvements are worth it. I even (hehe) worked out all the options I would want to get and all that, and after figuring out about how much I hope to be making (a little on the less side to be safe) and what kinds of payments I might have to make with a 5 year loan, I think it might be doable!! But the more I look at it, too, the more I think, "Geez, if I can only think I'd be able to afford a 330, it might be out of the question for me to get that M3 right out of college like I've always wanted." :p We'll see, I guess. Maybe I should start a "Help Jennifer get her new M3" Fund. Anyone willing to donate? :)
Well anyway, that's about it. I figured out my schedule for Fall will be the worst one... Winter and Spring are going to be really cool!! No class on Mondays Winter quarter if I get all this the way I want! Woo hoo! Which means graduation is materializing right before my eyes, and all those things I mentioned in my last post (e.g. senior portraits, announcements, yearbooks) are really coming fast!!! Ack!!!
I can't believe the last time I updated was June 30. NOTHING in July?! I'm soooo sorry, guys. Work takes a lot out of me, and since I'm online all day, I find no urge to go online when I get home, especially 'cause it takes so freakin' long to connect. And on top of that, when I DID get online recently, it was to finish my online traffic school (which I did, woo hoo!!).
So I got a new cell phone last night... I just had to, and when I went to find out some answers to questions about my moving down to LA in two months and stuff, I found out that there was a deal going on ANYWAY and it all just seemed so fated to happen... I got the LAST phone they had in this shipment at Circuit City, AND the last light blue face plate that I wanted and stuff. I've wanted one for so long, just for convenience, and I'm so happy I got it.
I have a recently-deceased quasi-lovelife as of now. It was a rough weekend to say the least. I've just been working, pretty much, making some money, spending even more money; going to sleep tired, waking up even more tired. It doesn't feel like a usual "rut" to me for some reason, maybe because I'm usually in a rut in LA, not SJ. I've made more intern friends here at Kinetics, especially one girl Shirley. It helps keep time moving faster 'cause we'll go play pool in the pool room or take a long lunch or something, plus take breaks just to hang out in the cubes. I guess nights are the worst 'cause I have time to just sit and think if I don't go out, so I try to go do SOMETHING... ANYTHING. I go to bed pretty early when I can, so just going out to even get ice cream or something is usually enough killed time so that I can get home and just get ready to go to bed. :)
So not much else. I'd like to think I'm less of a nerd now that I have more phone numbers than email addresses finally. [6 phone numbers (2 pager/voice mails, 1 work, 1 home, 1 cell, 1 apartment) and 5 emails (school, SEAS, Geocities, work, and AOL)] What do you think? :) Take care, and I'll try to update again soon.
Crazy week. My grandfather died last Friday, so I was back on the road Friday night till early Saturday morning, heading down to LA. Got back late Sunday, and started my job at Kinetics Monday morning. I'm SO glad it's Friday.
My job has the potential of being a really, really good learning experience. Good hands-on training. I'm learning SQL right now, and I'll be writing database reports for them all summer. I'll actually be DOING something for them! Unlike IBM. The language is really interesting, too, to the point where I want to read about it even when I'm not working. *gasp* I really AM a nerd.
I miss LA, but I think I'll be a little happier here when things fall back into a routine. I'm short on sleep and cranky. And I haven't had time to see my friends again (except Sara who's leaving and Emilio). Once I get that done, I think I'll be better.
Anyway, yeah, I'm back. Tired, but back. Get in touch with me!!
Happy Father's Day! I'm going to see my dad (who's in LA this weekend) and my grandpa in a couple of hours, so I'm pretty excited about that. I love you, Daddy!
Yesterday was one of those rare days filled with happy and exciting events, but where the events are tainted with a feeling of foreshadowing a deep sadness. I attended two UCLA graduations yesterday, one for my roommate who graduated a year early from the major of Psychology, and one for my two friends who graduated from the School of Engineering and Applied Science in the field of Computer Science. Like I said before, I wasn't expecting to have to say goodbye to friends I've made here so soon. In fact, part of me was in denial and believed that I wouldn't have to ever say goodbye to these friends, that these friends were forever. And my friends that I've made here at UCLA are just so much closer and more intimate than any friends I made back home (with a few exceptions). It didn't occur to me that we weren't all going to graduate at the same time, although that would have been ideal.
Anyway, this makes me sad, and the reason I decided to update right now is because I'm packing to go home for the summer, and that was making me sad. This is the first summer that I'm not really looking forward to going home. I guess I'm getting really attached to my friends and college life in LA.
So tomorrow, I'm off for San Jose with most of my personal belongings packed into trusty Beemots. I'm worried that not all of this will fit, though... I hope my dad has some extra room in my uncle's car. I'm scared about my new job and what it's going to be like. But I guess there's nothing I can do about it. I can't really stress too much about it. I better get back to packing....
Two more weeks! I have my midterm Wednesday and finals start on Saturday for me. Then I'll be attending two graduations on the 17th. I didn't think I'd be going to any graduations for at least 4 years after college, but some people are just quick, and others are just really awesome 4th and 5th years. Who knew we'd have to start saying goodbye so soon? I kinda felt like since I had to say goodbye just 3 short years ago, that I wouldn't have to say goodbye again for a long time... maybe not ever. *sigh* Damn, life can really suck sometimes.
I got to see my "crush" last night, so I was happy all day today. And I'm going out on Wednesday with another guy, just for fun. The weather's been nice, and I constantly have good music to listen to on my way to and from class since I recently bought more CDs online and had them delivered, then transferred them onto MD. I don't know what I would do without my MD player. I've just recently realized how addicted to music I am. And luckily, since I've been recently introduced to raver music (i.e. electronica, trance, etc.) and it has no words, I can have music playing constantly and still concentrate on my work better than not having any music on at all. I can't stand walking anywhere, any distance without music. If it wasn't for the fact that I have to recharge my MD player at night, I would leave it on all night, too.
Anyway, I'm just taking advantage of my "fast" connection this evening. I should go back to studying and going over stuff for the midterm so that I can ask some intelligent questions tomorrow at the review session. I have to remember, 2 more weeks, whether it makes me sad or not.
First and foremost, Happy Belated 16th Birthday, Erika!!
Life has been decent. This past long weekend was a blast! Sara came down to visit and we went to Disneyland and the beach. It was so, so cool. And it was so great hanging out with Sara again. It's nice because she really seems to get along with my friends here at school. I guess that means I'm consistent in the people I surround myself with. :)
The guy scene is going decently, as well, although now I find myself questioning if leaving for SJ for the summer was best for me. I mean, I know it's best, but it ruins a good chance I might have with my current crush, who will be graduating AND lives (and will live) about 20 minutes from here. *sigh* Can't have it all, can I. There are other guys, but I'm fixated on this crush of mine. I can't get enough of thinking about him or wanting to talk to or hang out with him. I haven't been this way in a while, liking someone I just recently met. I have this bad habit of falling for people I've known for a while. And it's fun! Ups and downs, but the ups are so worth it! :)
Anyways, technically I only have 5 days of class left... tomorrow, and next week, no class on Thursday. And I have finals till the 16th. I'll be here in LA till the 18th or 19th, I think, because I'm going to the Psych and CS graduations on the 17th anyway. Then I start my new job on the 26th. I can't believe it's already June!!!
Well, just wanted to touch base. I hope all is well with you!
Things are better here in the City of Angels, at least in my neck of the woods. While Monday was somewhat of a bad day for lots of people I know, we seem to have recovered quite well and are making the best of our time now.
School is so unstressful for me this quarter (knock on wood), such a change from quarters past. I love my math professor, he's so cool. And my CS class this quarter is just a lab, so no professor, and a really cool (cute) TA. Not too much work, just some occasional overtime during weekends and nights. And my Business Law class isn't the best, but I have like 5 friends in that class, and just reading (not too much), no real homework.
I got a new bathing suit two days ago!! It's really cute, and reversible, too, so it's like having two suits!! :) I also got new Pumas, white and light blue (of course) that I can't wait to wear. And a new halter that I'm wearing right now. AND I streaked my hair red yesterday. It's drastic at a couple parts, but the rest didn't bleach well, so it's very subtle. I like it, still. And it'll look cool even when the red wears off. I like having some lighter streaks in my hair. Gives it more spunk and shape, I think. For those of you wondering, my hair's almost shoulder length, and pretty much ponytail-able. Woo hoo!
Anyway, gotta get ready for class (lab). My math prof was sick, so class was cancelled. Take care, and wish me luck in getting a date this weekend!! :)
A roller coaster of a day. Got home really late (sorry, I can't disclose just how late it was because certain family members read this webpage, and I try to keep it G-rated) so slept in. Grocery shopped, got the apartment to myself because both my roommates went home for Mother's Day. Talked to Devin and had a huge fight... our first, and possibly our last, but only if we end up never speaking again. It's pretty hard to fight with someone when you're not speaking to them. Had dinner with Mitchell and Bryan, then went to see "Frequency" with Bobby, Bryan, and Andrew. We'd heard that it was a really good movie and made grown men cry. Well, I didn't particularly like the movie... kinda cheesy, and didn't even make ME cry, and I'm pretty weepy at movies. But it was nice to get out of the apartment, and even nicer to come home to an empty one.
I feel myself slipping into another mellow-zone of my life. I'm analyzing the reasons behind why I say or do the things I do. And I'm feeling lonely, wanting someone to share my thoughts with, someone who's not just a friend. Granted, that probably has a lot to do with the fact that Bobby, Meghan, and Chrissy are all involved with someone right now. But it's more than that. And at the same time, we only have about 4 or 5 weeks of school left, so I guess I'm stuck just waiting it out. Luckily, I'm in a mellow mood right now.
Happy Mother's Day to everyone who's given me guidance in my life, since I'm assuming that's what Mother's Day is supposed to celebrate. :)
I GOT A JOB OFFER!!!!!!!!!!
It's at Kinetics in Santa Clara, so I'll get to go home for the summer no matter what, even if I don't get ANY OTHER offers!!! You don't understand HOW exciting this is for me, I was SO incredibly worried that I wouldn't get to go home for the summer. I thought if I had to stay here, I would go insane. I have to come back here for a whole year more anyway, so going home is a very, very good thing.
Also, both my cousin and grandfather are doing better. My cousin is out of the hospital and up and about now. My grandfather is still in the hospital, but he's taking a few steps at a time now.
We're in midterms now, halfway through the quarter. I'll be out of school as of the 16th of June, and I start my job (if I take this one) on the 26th of June. I hope everyone in SJ is doing well. =)
How is it that I can fail to protect myself from hurt, even when I'm so careful to shield myself from guys and my feelings?? I don't know why I keep getting in the same situations, because these situations I find myself in are not the most common. I'm always "the girl who guys like, but isn't around," so I also end up being "the girl who hurts because even though guys like her, she finds herself all alone."
I'm not making much sense right now. I think I'll write more when I feel more coherent. Still looking for a summer internship, by the way.
I have an interview tomorrow! It's with a company called NCR, some software development place, and I think they specialize in parallel processing technology. I don't know if this is what I want, and I definitely know it's not WHERE I want a summer internship (it's by LAX), but I'm going to go and put my best foot forward and see if they like me. I'm so scared. I feel like I haven't ever been this scared about something like this. But Bobby's right: I have to start somewhere.
Wish me luck. Send me any C/C++ knowledge via brainwaves around 2 pm tomorrow in case they test me on programming knowledge. =)
Spring Break has come and gone. I'm settled back into my humble apartment life with my two roommates, getting used to my classes and professors for this new quarter. I'm just taking three classes: Business Law, Numerical Analysis, and a 4 unit Computer Architecture Lab. Shouldn't be THAT bad, I suppose, but I haven't taken a math class since a year and 4 months ago, so I'm a little concerned about that. Plus the reading for my law class will suck... how in the world does ANYONE become a lawyer?? If I didn't need this technical minor, I would NOT take this class.
Because of this time change AND starting new classes and having a week off and stuff, I feel rejuvinated, but tired and out of steam at the same time. I want to go out and party and go clubbing (this Saturday, woo hoo!) and stuff 'cause it's been SO long. And the weather is so nice, too! And I have no classes on Thursdays and pretty much Tuesdays, either, because it's just one hour discussion, and the TA seems like a ditz (I went today).
I went to visit my grandpa today. He was hit by a car a little over a week ago, and got back from the hospital yesterday. He seems to be doing alright, it just takes him that much longer to walk around and stuff. He needs a walker and it hurts him to stand, but sitting and laying down seems to be okay. I'm glad he's okay for now. I hope he recovers from the hip surgery soon.
Well it's off to bed. 4˝ straight hours of class tomorrow. Woo hoo. Have a nice week!
Tomorrow's my last final! Yesterday's and today's finals went surprisingly well, considering they were my CS classes. I think I did well (knock on wood)! Tomorrow's shouldn't be too bad, it's a life science GE, pure memorization. We'll see. I'll be happy with a B+ in it. And we'll see if I pulled off a B or higher in my Computer Architecture class. =)
I should be on the road sometime between 10 and 11 tomorrow morning. I originally planned on leaving around 10, but people who took this class before say it took longer then they expected. =( It only took me 25 minutes to take the midterm (we were given 90 minutes) and while this is a longer test, we're given an 3 hours. I just want to leave. And I have to get gas (like $50 worth or something) and put air in my tires. But then it's onto "the" 405, "the" 5, 152, 101, and 85! (You can distinctly tell when I cross the line between "southern CA" and "hella" cool "northern CA." =)
Anyway, I should study, then yell at midnight for midnight yell (how apropos), and maybe head off to bed-y-bye. Early test, 8 am. Wish me luck, and see you soon!!
*grumble grumble* I don't like being up this early. *rubbing my eyes* I woke up early for my 8 am class, thinking that maybe, JUST MAYBE since it's the second to last class of the quarter, we'd do something productive, or at least get our second midterm back, but NO. Of course not. What was I thinking? He finished the lecture an hour early (on which the topic was Pipelining, and I already understand it pretty well from last quarter) and we did professor evals, and let us go. Now I have like 45 minutes to kill before my next class. Oh, well. I guess the evals alone was worth it. I jumped on the chance to criticize the lack of organization and independence from the other lecture. He used the other prof's notes, homeworks, and even the TA (who didn't cater to our needs), even though he writes his own tests which don't coincide with the homeworks. Doh! So at least SOMETHING good came out of it.
Enough whining. I'm loving this sunny, warm weather!! We went to the beach in Santa Monica on Sunday, and even though it was kinda overcast there, it was fun to romp in our bathing suits and cover Bryan with sand. And this morning, even though it was f*&%ing early walking to class, it was sunny and warm, and it reminded me of high school, and how, the closer you get to summer, the sunnier it is in the early mornings. I WISH it was summer vacation coming up instead of Spring Break, but Spring Break is fine with me, too. =)
What else is going on in my life right now? Hmm. Well, we (me, Bobby, and Jon) are currently working on our second and last project for our Networking class. It's due on Thursday, so we've been working on it until about 2 am since Sunday night. Tonight and tomorrow (and Thursday day) should be just as stressful if not more stressful than the last days before the first project was due. Looking forward to that.
I'm working on time management because the way my finals are laid out this quarter, it looks like I'll have to do some of my studying way ahead of time (for classes that I don't have to worry as much about), even though I don't like doing that. Seems like I have less time than usual this quarter for preparing for my classes, AND I have lots and lots of studying to do if I want to do as well as I would like. I hope I'll find the time to study enough, and hopefully our group study sessions will be beneficial this time around instead of ending in trips to Fry's (like Spring Quarter last year) like the good CS students we are.
Anyone know of any job/internship openings available for the summer, particularly in San Jose or the immediate Bay Area?? Because I really, really need a job BAD. And I would like to be in San Jose for the summer to be with my family and help out my dad. I have a resume ready to send if you know of any. I don't want to put my address and stuff on the web, so please email me and I would be MORE than willing to send you (or the company) my resume. Thanks in advance. =) Of course, if it's easier, you can just send me money. I can deal with that.
Well, while the sun shines and taunts us for having to study instead of basking in its glory, I must do the former. Enjoy the weather that I can't enjoy, and tell me all about it. 10 days and eagerly counting.
Hump Day, Ninth Week. Finally finished midterms yesterday, THANK GOD. We have a project due in CS 118 next Thursday (hint hint, Bobby and Jon, we need to get to work!!) and then it's straight on to finals. Whoopee. My finals schedule is Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday of the week of March 20th. Then I'll be home in four days after that!!
So I've been thinking, 'cause a lot of my friends are fourth or fifth years, and they'll be off to work starting this summer... and that's coming up for us third years, too. And it's not like we're all going to work in the same place, the way we all go to the same school. So we'll be scattered all over California, even the country, and that's scary. High school friends haven't stuck around except for the select few, and I thought when I got here that this was going to be great and I'll have all these friends forever and stuff. Well, I guess I never took into account that we won't be near each other geographically. Sure, we'll be friends, and I have confidence that these friends I made here won't be like my high school "friends" and we'll be in touch for a long time, if not for the rest of our lives, but I'll want them around like they are right now. Starting next year, I won't see the familiar faces that I see every day or even LIVE with now. My circle of friends will start dwindling and our days in LA will be numbered.
So I guess I'll have to take advantage of this. Never again will we live in apartments where ALL the tenants are kids my age. And this time of my life is very special, Dad wasn't kidding. A year and a half left (if I'm on time). Pretty crazy.
For the record, I hope all of you have a copy of the new Dr. Dre "2001" CD. Very, very good CD. Well, if you like this kind of music. =) Hehe.
I've recently come across a revelation that has definitely lightened my stressload for the quarter. I recently "realized" that taking this management class pass/no pass is more of a blessing than first thought. I have been putting more emphasis on my CS classes than this class and microbio because my major classes are more important to me than these GEs, and because of it, and the difficulty of my management/accounting class, my grade has been slipping. Well, I only need a C- to get that wonderful "P" on my transcript, and even if I *gulp* failed to get that sacred C- (knock on wood), that grade isn't calculated into my GPA! With finals and project due dates (and still another midterm) coming up rapidly, trust me, there isn't much better news I can hear than that. All I technically lose is 4 units if I don't pass, and even with that deficit, I can still easily graduate in 4 years, given that I get all the classes I need (again, knock on wood).
It was a more relaxing week than the past 6, thank goodness. I had no midterms or projects due this week. I took it a little easy; hung out with my friend on Tuesday night, went to a date party Wednesday night, had a dinner at our place last night. And last weekend was pretty full of hanging out and partying. Alas, the time has come where finals are just too damn close for comfort and I have to start digging my heels in to brace myself for the initial blow. Spring Break is coming up, woo hoo! I'll be driving home (San Jose) the afternoon of the 24th of March, a Friday. I have a final that morning, but it should be over early, and at the latest, I should be on the road by noon. Then I have the week to myself at home, where I'm going to RELAX. I'm talking, sleeping in, eating whatever the hell I want (within reason), and if there's sun (yeah, right), tanning in the back or something. Sara and Kelly have the same spring break as me (SJSU), and actually, so does Berkeley, so I should be able to hang out with some people, but for the most part, I'm glad our spring break doesn't coincide too much with everyone. I wouldn't want to be crazy busy trying to see a ton of people and then come back to school to start Spring Quarter all exhausted. One week just isn't enough for me to recuperate unless I take advantage of every second. I return to LA on the 1st of April.
Well I should head to class. I'm actually going to my CS 151 discussion, but only to pick up my homework. This TA only services the other professor's students... our professor couldn't find anyone who wanted to TA this class. And you know why? It's because this class SUCKS. I don't blame them. This TA is the same one who TAed it last quarter (when I took it, *sniff*). He kinda laughed at me when he saw me first week. I never went back. But I'm doing well this time around! I just need my homeworks back so I can study them for the second midterm that's this Tuesday.
So have a good weekend! LA is supposed to see some rain again this weekend, and I'm sure the Bay Area is still saturated, so stay warm and I guess I'll be studying. =( 3 weeks from today, right now, I'll be on I-5 heading north very happily. =) See you soon!
First and foremost, Happy would-have-been-24th Anniversary to my Dad and Mom.
Just touching base. Swamped with work like you wouldn't believe, and little things just getting in the way. Me and Chrissy need to find a new apartment-mate(s) for next school year because Meghan's graduating at the end of the summer, and we can't handle the rent ourselves. I still have midterms... two left, three if you count the third one for Management. I have one this Thursday and one two Thursdays from this one. And on top of all this, next Tuesday, I have to enroll in two of next quarter's classes. Like I don't have enough to worry about THIS quarter!! But I'm proud to say, I'm now Senior Standing (or I will be after this quarter is over) so I'm pretty excited. I'm almost done!
Rain is supposed to start up again late tonight and all day tomorrow. I don't mind 'cause I only have one class tomorrow. Then I have to study like the dickens afterwards. Projects are being assigned, homework isn't letting up, midterms are still coming. And what am I doing? I'm updating my web page. How productive of me. Ack!! I really should go. Don't drown, everyone, in SJ AND LA. Drive safely... crazy drivers out there. 32 days till I'll be home for Spring Break!
At the lab again. Doesn't look like I'll be updating too much this quarter after all... my midterm schedule is one of the scariest I've ever had, and it's just beginning. It starts this Thursday. So I'm thinking, when I come to the lab to download my lecture notes for my CS classes might be the only time I get to update. =(
What's going on in my life? Not much. The highlights of last week were going to Evening with Industry (to give out resumes to companies) and seeing the taping of MadTV... and we saw Regis Philbin and Tyra Banks (in vinyl!!)!! It was so awesome, and the taping was hysterical.
I've been doing homework and stuff, keeping busy. I hardly get upset about Emilio anymore; in fact, I don't cry over him at all, and the sadness is turning more into hatred, or at least irritation. I hardly talk to him, hardly email, and I don't think about him much.
There's a party this Thursday, after the UCLA/Stanford bball game, which is after my midterm, so that's good. I'll get to unwind a little. But for now, I have to head home and study my @$$ off... I feel like I've been studying so hard, but I've really just barely dented my studying for this class. I hate having to prioritize which classes to study for. It's not fair.
Take care.
[Insert words to Auld Lang Syne here.]
Um... Happy New Year? I guess I didn't update from work after all. So it's been a while. Since I last wrote, I've been home for vacation and back. It was a wonderful break. I had a job, I had a boyfriend, and I had family over for the holidays. Now I'm jobless, boyfriendless, and there's no family to be seen for miles. I'm back at school... another quarter, another s***load of classes. But things will get better, you know? I figure, things can't get much worse (knock on wood).
In all seriousness, I had fun working over the break, working with some familiar faces and some new ones. The holiday rush was just that: a rush. Days pretty much went quickly, and the money has rolled in (and out). I spent all my free time with Emilio since Sara was in Canada for most of the vacation. The days and nights were very happy for me, and at least I can look back fondly, even if I can't say I'm happy with the way things turned out.
No real new years resolutions, and that's pretty crazy 'cause you would think I of all people would have a ton of them for the new millenium. Now, this isn't to say that I'm perfectly happy with the person I am, because I'm not, by far. I would like to do better in school, for example. But I can't just say "I'm going to study harder" because that's damn near impossible... I studied SO HARD the past few quarters. I just need to do BETTER. I need to figure out what I'm doing wrong, because I'm not doing as well as I would like. I would like to be a more optimistic person, a happier person. I would like to be less fickle, less mean, less vengeful. I would like to have less extremes as far as my emotions go, and I would like to make everyone around me like me. But you see, this is just a description of who I want to be, not who I am, and I don't really think you can really change the person you are. I think people change when they're not being the person they really are inside. And I hope to God this isn't the person I really am inside. Or maybe this is, but I hope it's not etched in stone. I like to think of myself as in a transitional period of my life. I'm not in LA permanently (HELL NO), I'm not going to be in SCHOOL forever (hopefully), I'm hopefully not going to be lonely forever, and I will hopefully be a better person eventually. So until all that settles, I'm in a transitional period. And that means that nothing I am or think or feel is really ME, not yet. If that makes any sense to you. (Me personally, I just made myself dizzy. Or maybe it's the circulation in Powell Library that's making me dizzy.)
In all that I just babbled about, I guess it's safe to say that my one resolution is to be more mellow, more laid back. To tell myself that none of this is permanent, so I should relax about the bad things and to try to hold onto the good things so that they'll BECOME permanent as I figure my life out. I don't know how I'm going to do it. I don't know if I can, or if it's even a plausible resolution. But I guess I can try. We'll see how it goes. This should be quite entertaining.
Anyway, I should head back to the apartment. My roommate will probably start to wonder where I am. I will try to update more (maybe that can be another resolution), but my connection speed just sucks. Maybe I should invest in DSL... if I can budget more money. We'll see. Money's hard to come by lately. I hope I get an internship over the summer. Take care, everyone, and San Jose... I miss you dearly.
"I've got no motivation. Where is my motivation? No time for motivation. Smokin' my inspiration." -- Green Day
I'm DONE with finals, I'm DONE with Fall quarter, I'm DONE with LA, and I'm DONE for the rest of the year!!!! I'm SO happy. It's over, and I get to drive home tomorrow. WOO HOO!!! So page me up for the next three weeks while I'm at home in San Jo. HERE I COME!!!!!
Feeling a better... just tired as hell all the time. Sore throat and headache are virtually gone, too. Thank God! Exams are fast approaching....
I'm sick. =( I went to the Urgent Care at Kaiser. Got some medicine, hopefully it'll help. And I should get the results of the throat culture soon.
Hope you're feeling better than I am... I just don't want to be sick for finals!! =(
My 2-4 class was cancelled! Woo hoo! So we're in the lab just putzing around.
Thanksgiving weekend was, as usual, too short, but way fun. Saw a couple of movies, went to San Bruno for dinner on Thursday, hung out, and did NOTHING school related ALL WEEKEND. It was nice, but now I just want to go right back home. But I have to wait 3 weeks, one of which is the dreaded FINALS WEEK. =(...
Please let me make it through the next 3 weeks alive. All I want to do is drive home to San Jose on the 18th and all will be well (until grades come in). Take care, everyone, and HI, AUNTIE KAYO!!!
Just writing to say how excited I am that I'm going HOME tomorrow! I haven't slept anywhere but in this apartment since the night of the 24th of September, almost exactly 2 months ago. I can't wait!! HERE I COME!!!!
My hell week is over as of 5:22 pm today, when I stepped into my apartment and DIDN'T have to crack a book. The program is turned in (as finished as possible), my two hardest midterms (not to mention my LAST two midterms) are over and done with, and my history paper was turned in yesterday. And I even did well on my history midterm that I got back! I don't have anything due between now and Thanksgiving, and I'm SOOO thankful for that alone.
I actually got out of the apartment and didn't have to head straight to campus. We went to a couple of parties, and boy, was it nice to get out of the place and mingle with people who aren't just in your classes. And tonight, Kootie will be here!! Yay! =)
I get to go grocery shopping (but not too much 'cause I'm going HOME soon!!) tonight, and relax with my roommates till I go to LAX to pick up Kootie at like 10:30 or so tonight. I love driving!! Especially 'cause I have two new CD's in my CD changer. =)
Well, tomorrow's the UCLA vs. U$C game. *gulp* I'm not going... I sold my ticket. Kootie will be here, and I don't want to go to the Coliseum anyway. I just hope we win. And I want to SHOP!!! (What's rent?) =) Have a great weekend, even though it might rain. I LOVE RAIN!! And I get to go home soon!! I LOVE HOME!!! SEE YOU SOON, SJ!!!
NINE MORE DAYS until I get to be back in San Jose!! I can't WAIT. This week actually went by pretty fast looking back on it, but now I have to study all weekend for my two back to back midterms next week. Woo hoo.
I went running this morning after I drove Chrissy onto campus. Isn't that crazy? Running! ME!! =) It wasn't too much, like two miles, but the hills were killing me. Plus I'm out of shape (imagine that). I haven't exercised since I was trying to fit into my prom dress for Bobby's formal last spring (which I fit into now, like it does me any good). But we'll see if it gives me more energy or makes me sleep through the night or whatever.
So I thought I'd update and let everyone know I'm still alive, though I don't think many people still keep up with this page anymore. I haven't gotten any new guestbook entries lately. Oh, well. It's very rare that I get a fast connection like the one I have now anyway. =p
I think today will be a good day. I got a page and a voicemail from Emilio so I got to talk to him this morning, I was able to wake up at a halfway decent hour (for a Saturday), and I was only up for an hour in the middle of the night instead of the two or three that I usually can't sleep. Plus I went running, so I'm proud of myself. Hopefully I'll get some studying done 'cause I NEED to!!! Well, after I clean up this page a little, hee hee. =)
Two more midterms, and I'm done with them! Just projects, papers, homeworks, and finals left. =p I WANNA GO HOME!!!! =) Take care.
Gabe (Emilio's friend) drove all the way down from San Jose to LA last night. He didn't get here till 3 am, and he had to leave by 7 am, but he drove down anyway! It was awesome to see a San Jose face... but it made me miss home even more. :(
I'm so homesick you don't understand. And can someone PLEASE just tell me how to write a simple Java program by Monday at 4 pm?!?!?!?!?!?!
I'm in Gavin's room right now 'cause I have a huge gap in my classes, and we both have management at 3 today. He's eating at the dining hall right now, and I'm up here, envying him to no end because he has the ethernet connection. Dammit.
But seriously, I'm here to study. I have a huge midterm on Thursday that I'm scared silly about, and I have two CS assignments due on Friday, plus I have to read tons of $hit for Japanese.
Just wanted to update and say hi to everyone (if anyone still reads this). I can't wait to come home... I miss home so bad.
I had a wonderful birthday yesterday. Thank you to everyone who showed they care by sending cards and presents! I love you all! We had a good dinner at The Cheesecake Factory in Marina del Rey, right on the water. Then we came back here and we played some games like Pictionary and Guesstures with like 11 people. It was great. And I even got tickets to "Whose Line is it Anyway?"!!!!! I'm SO excited!
But to the more serious stuff. I'm really homesick. I feel trapped here, and incredibly depressed. I've never been this way for so long. I'm thinking about coming home for the weekend on the 12th of November, but I have a midterm that next week in Management, so I don't know. I can't go this coming weekend because of midterms, or the weekend after because of the taping of the show. And it would be pointless to go the weekend after the 12th because I'm going home that Tuesday for Thanksgiving, and the U$C game is that Saturday... and I spent $23 on it, so I'm definitely going (even though we SUCK this year!!).
I hope all of you are doing well. I miss you, San Jose. :(
